kaleidoscope..

so after a month and nine days of blogless solitude, I'M BACK!
yes, i am really back. doh. hehe! i dunno how to start.
one month. nine days. whew..anyway, that blinking cursor is talking again in front of my face. the last time i was here was my mom's birthday ( i'm actually worried about her right now, really. we're actually waiting for my cousin to arrive in a minute to check her condition. i know, this is isn't something dangerous, but i'm just worried. haaaay..). i don't really care whatever harm happens to me. do everything to harm me, nail me. hit me. pacquiao-punch me. or even cast that avada kedavra curse on me. i don't care. all is well in the world, just don't touch my family and the people who are close to me, i.e. my bestfriend(isa pa gd ni! kaulugtasan ni klase nga tawo. you are giving me headaches. haha!). but mom's a bit okay now. indi lng gd ko mapanatag. galantaw pa gni d cla cbng Survivor: Tocantins. where is that anyway? tocantins. bizarre.

the great Francis M. was right, it's a kaleidoscope world.

it's been a long time since i have 'visited' my space here. i miss writing. i write because basically my life is messy. i write because there's no one(except my bestprend) who's interested to listen. i write because my mouth can't seem to utter the words inside me. or maybe, just maybe, mahilig lng gd ko guro magtago sng mga bagay bagay nga gakatabo sa kabuhi ko. writing is a solace. an outlet. i write when something shit happens(which happens all the time by the way.). u know, from all the crap and shit your blogger has been through. i haven't written for a very long time. so does that mean i now have a better life? think again.

in retrospect, lotsa things happened this past month or so..u know, summer. internship. midterm is quite okay, but final's really excruciating to the brain! kabudlay kay ma'am Sima maghatag quiz kag exam. goodluck to that very clean and erasure-free white notes. haha! u know what i mean. internship came to its end too. bittersweet. bittersweet again. and some more bittersweet feeling. i will miss Rx, but i will miss a thousandfold the people we've been with this whole internship. to Mercury Drug - Iznart, my eternal thanks go to you. THANK YOU. and to smarty smart pebbles, sweet antoniette(hahaha! ssshhh..she'll hate me forever for this! lols.), and melmelmelmelissa(*ehem!!! hahaha..), i know, the ride was tough. for all our boredom-kills-moments, hello-tita-norrie intercom calls, yes-wala-si-ma'am-soping-for-fifteen-days! exuberations, and all the HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAs in the world, THANK YOU. didto naman ta nyu liwat ma specialization! hehe!

it's hard to put this experience into a blog. words would do no justice. words would be, kulang.

theology 106 ended too. ma'am hojilla is the best theo teacher. =))

finals ended today. and summer's over(kay hambal sng PAG-ASA, it's rainy season na kuno starting today, though the sun is still blistering hot.). at last, classes have ended(kelangan pa gling magbalik bwas)! i can now devote my time reading pending books. sorry to nicholas sparks and stephanie meyer. and bob ong has a new book coming! i'll be watching out for that. i can now watch american idol finale! yey..hehe! and i think i saw harry potter on his broomstick last night. or was it madam hooch? i dunno. anyway, July 15!!!

men are creatures that are constantly yearning to find themselves. there are many roads. pick one. and when u get stumbled, try the other ones. who knows..

stay hott, it's summer still. =)


P.S. it's nice to drop-by once in a while here. and sorry for being rusty. hehe!

me is scatterbrained..again.

-- thursday, april 2, 2009. it was the first day of my internship sa botica! and i was thirty minutes late. so, how was that? and now u ask why. my pants got stinky and dirrty and messy. there's always a first time.*sighs..clumsy abi eh. "clumsiness is next to breakages!" <--- motto sa lab! haha..i never expected that internship could be this tiring and wearysome. good thing Mercury Iznart is airconditioned or else it must be like hell. summer pa daan! me and my fellow interns(pebbles, antoniette, and melissa) are enjoying and always having a laugh with the Pharmacy Assistants. ka sadya sa ila! pero iban ok lng. mabuot cla tanan except kay ma'am sophie kay she's a little strict which is understandable coz she's the manager, aka 'The Boss'. we stay most of the time in the Rx area, which is by the way very confusing the first time one sets foot in there. it's hard to remember all those generic names, brand names, and amount. oh poor neurons of mine! Internship can be summarized in three words: sadya, kagulutom, kag makapoy! i'm tired as hell. whew..


-- thank God for this two-day rest. and i mean, R-E-S-T. one can never really describe the haggardness we feel at the end of the day. i'm like a zombie ---alive but dead.
you don't have the energy to do things anymore and all u wanna do is crawl on your bed and doze off and call it a day. zZzZzZz... alaxan and extra joss, anyone?


-- everytime i go to my room, there are books staring at me waiting to tell their stories. stephen king is really good. pet sematary! haha..i like scary books and movies dan. kapin pa mga brutal. waaaah! it invigorates my spirit! it excites my neurons! hahaha..and salamat kay jaret sa mga libro. =)


-- today is april 6. the birthdate of my mom. and i dunno what to say(or write). i think words can never do any justice when it comes to the degree of love our mothers give us. i'm sorry shakespeare, but words are pathetic. it's her birthday to day, and no big celebration coz we are utterly poor. it'll be just us and some relatives will come i guess. poor! mom may not be wonderwoman, but i know God made her wonderful. she's the one who taught me the basics of Christian faith. and thank you for everything ma. I LOVE YOU.
*i just can't put into words what i'm really trying to say. dammit.


stay happy. stay superb.
and have a meaningful Holy Week everyone!

=)

the fab four!!!

The Beatles, aside fr0m ancient civilizations and dinosaurs ---is the reason why i wish i was born in the past. uhmm..not actually born. born is too strong a word i guess. it's more of like time-travel.
Beatlemania is a fandom. for some, a religion(too strong a word again..hehe.). and for others, a cult. if you're a Beatles fan, stand up and be counted.

let's listen to what music in the 60's was. let's relive the past.
weeeeh!!!



'stand by me'
i liked it the first time i heard this. there's a new remix of this. but i dunno who did it.



'all you need is love'
remember that smart commercial years way back? yeah, The Beatles did it originally.



'help!'
this is the very first Beatles song i listened to.



'with a little help from my friends'
i love this one! ringo starr did this one. nice nice nice..and so is the yellow submarine.


'imagine'
john and yoko. john wearing his signature hair and glasses. this is downright sublime..=)


"yes we all shine, like the moon, the stars, and the sun."
- john lennon

first day jitters..

the white uniform ---i still have to run some errands over this one.
the not white shoes ---okay, it's not entirely white. watt-da.
DTR, waiverSSS, recommendation letter, medical, application form, good moral certificate(why in the world did they issue me this one?! i don't practice morality. and morality is always in cahoots with society, which is by the way stereotypical. together, they violate my philisophy---INDIVIDUALISM. hahaha..) ---DONE.
and the telephone call we've all been waiting for sooo long ---haven't been transmitted yet.

................................................now i'm poker faced.


duty na!!! well, uhmm..almost.

my teacher in Theo 106 didn't show up. okay, another pes0s from our tuition fee went out flying.

for weeks, i've been contemplating when exactly will we start our internship sa botica. my classmates started theirs yesterday afternoon after ma'am Sima made the best out of my batchmates' acting talentSSS. haha..yes, we had dramatization on what to do in case a patient asks for this one, does this, how to deal with them, and how to place a call on the patient's physician. Pharmacy 2 goes star circle quest! and ma'am Sima is a good mentor. pang Gabby-Sharon ang directing skills ni ma'am! hehehe!

i won't make our fairy tale stories with Mercury Drug short because there's no way i could make it. tni may Pluto Drug or di gni Jupiter Drug man bah.
but here's the real score; uhmmm..we just don't know when exactly can we start our internship. all the managers said that our application forms haven't been received yet in the main office there in manila. so all we can do is WAIT and cross our fingers. =)) *all fingers are crossed

i'm happy to see my batchmates wearing their white uniform with matching white shoes! bskan wala ko naka uniform, in a way i saw my self in them. it seems bizarre. surreal even. that white unform means a passage of rite. they were happy, and you can tell it with the smiles and banters they throw at each other. the girls were drop-dead beautiful and sexy. uhmm..u know, the curves. hehehe! the boys were suave. girls and boys were all sophisticated! not to mention debonair. and jumie was the only one who took the time to prep up herself with her make up kit. ma'am Sima said, "girls must only put on a 'mild' make up". and jumie defended herself saying that hers was mild. with all the blinding glitters, yeah it was mild. hahaha! i am honestly dreading what heavy make up means to her. this woman has the fabulosity that one can never have in her entire lifetime. =)

but after a month or so, i know our enthusiasm will eventually fade away. uniforms will be stained. and shoes will no longer look as new and shiny as it used to be.

but hell who cares?!

get excited if u want! we're just living the moment! get that clothes dirrty. kick that shoes and walk with style baby!

and when this internship ends, i know, we'll never be the same again. =))

hooray to batch 2011!

"quote unquote"

i like Grey's Anatomy. no, i ADORE Grey's Anatomy. this is not someone speaking as a fan. this is someone speaking as a devotee. *chuckles..

main character doing voice-overs. that is what i notice about American shows and sitcoms. u know..the murdered lady in Desperate Housewives, the Gossip Girl in GG(xoxo, Gossip Girl), and Meredith Grey of Grey's Anatomy, et al...it's good to have those, coz i still find it hard to fathom what they're trying to say. and i want to share to all of you some of Meredith's voice-overs/realizations/quotes.

here goes:

"At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines... that are way too dangerous to cross. But here's one thing i know; the view from the other side is spectacular."
--**life is messy. true. maybe that's y i keep on blogging coz life is indeed, messy. i wanted something where i can freely scribble the mess of my life. nay lng, du ga layu na ta haw..hehe! anu ang point ko man? du kabudlay i-paraphrase ni! basta, life is full of lines! haha! u know, wrinkles.

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true."
--**an author once said that fairy tales don't teach us dragons exist. dragons are already there breathing fires on their mouth and nostrils. what fairy tales teach us is how to kill those dragons. my own fantasy? to infiltrate willy wonka's chocolate factory!!! yum!

"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away."
--**uh oh. life isn't about the number of years we take. rather, it's all about the moments that take our breath away. indeed, the expected is what keeps us going...and the unexpected is what changes our lives.

"A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying."
--**i have my own set of fears(spiders!!!). and i know u have yours too. we all have, actually. i think what we all need is the belief that you can overcome them. if you can't overcome them, then undercome them. MJ(michael jordan, not michael jackson) shouldn't have been the best basketball player had he not miss 2000+ shots. paul ehrlich couldn't have discovered Salvarsan if he did not fail for 605 times. salvarsan 606( i guess we all know that). great men and women didn't just come down to history without trying, and consequently failing. u see, self-belief is all that matters. go out. the world is yours to explore. make mistakes. take a few bold moves(MOVES. not MOVIES. okey? haha!). because people who always try are those people you always see winning. self-belief.

"Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more. Look at this. Everybody wants a life without pain. And what does it get you? She needs to be on a poster somewhere to remind people, pain is there for a reason."
--**i think some pain are self-inflicting. if you're in pain, and if u want to cry it out, then cry it out. if u want to break the neck of the one who caused you this, then break it! haha! joke lng. pain. a natural thing. there's no sense on dwelling on things that hurt us. as i said, pain can sometimes be self-inflicting. smile lng bla! nu gd na man..remember; what doesn't kill us makes us a better person. and what makes us happy makes us a better person man japun...HAHAHA! t0inx!

"Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate."
--**yes, being alive is enough reason to be thankful. live. love. laugh. and u'll be more thankful. =))

"At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say cause there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves."
--**whew! the quote says it all. =)

"Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need."
--**true. some things are just hard to utter. like...ma'am Corpus pwede namun malantaw grades namun(especially sa midterm!!! structural formulas are killing me)? hehe!

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need."

--**maybe that's why we have bestfriends. coz we can't do it all on our own. we just can't. we need someone who could lift us up. someone who simply listens to us. someone to tell our failures and dreams to. and someone to drink with. =)

wanna see season 5..

dammit. i miss this.






*Denny came down from heaven to bid his last goodbye to Izzie.

..simply the most poignant moment in Grey's Anatomy.

'..we reach across the gap. and sometimes, against all odds, against all logic. we touch.'

i wanna be naked too! =)

i have a problem.
i am dripping with sweat.
and i dunno what's the remedy.

men sweat twice more than women do.
but your blogger is sweating thousandfolds!
it's okay, i'm not so-human anyway.
maybe God didn't intend me to live in a tropical country. it gives me enough reason to bec0me a Swiss. =)

halo-halo. mais con yelo ni Nang Teri(ang neybor namun). Boracay! dirrrty ice cream. the beach(and bitches flaunting their body in the beach..ooops! hehe!). henna tattoes. salbabida. Paraw Regatta! sago't gulaman. Baguio! trunks and bikinis. havaianas and ipanemas. family outing. buko juice. fruit salad. pineapple juice! sunblocks. shades. beach volleyball. frisbee. the sun. the President surfing in Siargao(the surfing board is bigger than her!). the President playing golf in Baguio with the oligarchs of the society. the President going to Europe with all the members of her clan, not to mention the yayas. SHE'S NOT CORRUPT. yes, that was another understatement from the Arroyo administration.

a corrupt President ruling an ailing land. it makes my summer more unbearable than ever! ugh.
gimme that buko juice please.*sips..

welcome to summer in the Philippines.
(*type ko gd bla tirahon si Gloria. duno y..hihihi! )


i feel so hott. my summer memories just keep on flowing back at me. whew..n0w i'm getting nostalgic. hello childhood...my most vivid memory of summer was when my mother got furious with me. me and my 2nd cousins went out in the middle of the day in the scorching heat of the sun. i was out there swimming. swimming in the lake. nothing wrong actually. until m0m later found out that i nearly got drowned. bam! kastigo militar and bartolina for two days!!! it was the moment that gave me the meaning of electricution. kay hambal namun manguha lng kmi bulak kay ma Flores kmi. ang ending naghagaday kmi ya nga mag parentehanay maglangoy. per0 nag enjoy man ko langoy!. hehe! and speaking of bartolina, i would usually join the company of my nephews, nieces, and cousins flying the burador(kite) after days of being imprisoned in your own house. what fun! actually, i'm just the one who settles for a burador. gusto nila ya tanan pinaka(the bigger and more artistic version of a kite). then my father would help me when he sees i have difficulty flying it. a kite is easy to maintain than it's counterpart. easy to make. all you need is glue, bamboo sticks, and a roll of hilo. alas! now you have one. we would usually let it fly the whole day by tying the string up to a tree. teh swerte kung ara pa ya imu pagka aga eh. kis-a dan sa subra ka hangin gaka utod ang nylon o hilo. summer is also the time to heal broken wounds, literally. we would get bruises and wounds due to non-stop snowboarding, only this time there are no snows. haha! we live in the vicinity of a golf course(and contrary to popular belief, it isn't mine..hahaha! oh i'm dreaming again!), so there are lots of hills and miniature bukid. upod ko ya mga ka edad ko mag slide. my relatives are afraid of this coz their 'skin' might get 'bruised'. pe0ple, that's what you call 'overacting'. there's this piece of wood(ang lawanit na bla) that we sit on..and wo0osh! we were roaring like maniacs! sometimes a single piece of wood would contain ten people on it. baw ah. du Titanic eh n0h? bruises. broken b0nes. scars. name it. it's like a box of chocolate y'know..you never know what you'll get. haha..fun. fun. fun. and of course summer won't be complete without Flores de Mayo(wh0 said only good children can go to that? hehe..). dunn0 what happened but i seldom see kids doin' it these days. when the clock ticks 3 o'clock in the afternoon, it only means one thing...ma Flores de Mayo na ta kay may arr0z caldo! hehe..that caldo made my summer a bit hotter. and have i mentioned our trips to Boracay? damn! too bad Talipapa was engulfed by fire. i get such a high feeling when i'm travelling a long distance y'know. the white sand. the restobars. the ambience. and what's Boracay without naked people(well..sort of.)huh?! hehe! next year we'll all be spending our summer in Manila. Manufacturing Pharmacy, baby. set aside MOA, heck, we'll go to Baguio! hahaha..

these are the fun times i remember about my summer. or at least some of the things i remember about my summer. i guess there are just some things that you could only do in summer. moreover, the summer of your childhood life.

and gimme some buko juice again please..*swallows the buko juice...with the buko shell!*


P.S. i've been typing this entry for exactly 2 days. it's kinda late. and this is a valuable tip for everybody; procrastinating makes your entry a crappy 0ne!

summer only comes once a year, so u better enjoi the sun! now! =)

me is scatterbrained..

this is just pure nonsense blabbing.
y0u better grab the Feb issue of FHM than spend your time reading this.

here goes..

-- last night, i have this bad sore throat that restrained me from eating h0pia, my LFS(last food syndrome). and right n0w, i'm quite sick. Streptococcus pyogenes, any0ne?!

-- i've come to know that songs like Kisapmata(Rivermaya), Let It Be(The Beatles), and Tomorrow(Avril Lavigne) are the best sleeping pills in town.

prepare for this..
-- your blogger is finding a hard time balancing school life and sex life. HAHAHA:O oh gee..this must be the result of our group reports in Theology 104: Moral Theology. my ever virginal and chaste mind had been exp0sed to things that are new to me; pornography and PMS(ladies, it's pre-marital sex..not, u know..hehehe!). ma'am _________, if y0u, by any means, happen to read this, this is the main reason why i've been playing hide-and-seek with your subject. (wow. your blogger does projection perfectly. just perfect. hahaha!) teh gabugtaw man ko bla past 5(our class starts at 7:oo, and ma'am arrives before 7:00! yes, before 7...where does she live? does she not experience traffic? where did she get her broomstick? oh i see..ma'am is renting harry potter's Firebolt. or thestrals perhaps? hehe!) kis-a dan kanami gd magtulog kapin pa bal-an mu nga wala man lng quiz. *smirks..

-- this day commemorates the last day of skyrocketting breakages, chemical spills and explosions, adrenaline rushes, dead sea scroll-like requisitions, successful and better-luck-next-time experiments, oh-baby-i'm-drooling pre and p0st lab discussions(haha! sshhh...), ma'am-Julien-stop-looking-at-me-i'm-natutunaw moments(hehe!), and as far as Biochem lab is concerned( this is too much! haha..), graduate na kmi sa mga experiments! yis!

Experiment 17: Analysis of Blood.
last experiment.
DONE.

* i can actually feel my heart, spleen, and liver jumping up and down. =))

there are many funny and disastrous moments in Mendel 401. hmmm...where do i start? i can still remember ma'am corpus 'complimenting' Almond for his extreme resourcefulness. Almond, since when pa naging stirring rod ang test tube? since when?! hahaha..the class had a good laugh at that one. and the principle of boiling involves water. what if there's no water to boil? b0iling man na japun? teh kundi nagbaliskad na lng water bath ni Zed kay wala tubig! beakers, buka. si Zed, no comment lng. shock ang beauty ni ma'am. hahaha! h0w engrossing are those games in your cellphone Zed? how?! f0cus man b. baw! i think group 2(nick, zed, paul, judel, and n0ng edwin) will soon find themselves constantly visiting at Gringott's Bank withdrawing quite large amount of penny. 0kay lng na ah! haciendero baby man si judel! haha! ilisipon na lng sa kamot ila nabilin nga apparatus. ilisipon. sa. kamot. it's somewhat a bittersweet feeling though. no more experiments. which means, our muscles(especially the facial muscle! haha!) won't get the exercise they usually get when there's a class in the lab. no more explosions. no more tan-awa man-mayu-b-kung-anu-color-sng-precipitate-ya-hu moments with ma'am Corpus. and bye bye to Senate Inquistions. o0ops! haha..

i never had single moment of regret that i belong(and will forever belong) to Phar2B. yes, our class is far from perfect. but still, it's like heaven conjured up some charm to let us all fall into one section. sadya ang section. g0odlcuk na lng kay Gideon kay nagsaylo xa sa A(but rumor has it nga mabalik daw xa kuno, di ya kmi matiis eh..haha!)

funny. alive. noisy. smart. intelligent. witty. striving. may cooperation(kis-a wala man eh..far from perfect gni!=]). outrageously whacky! different people with the same goal; to pass the Pharmacy Licensure Exam! 100%! n0 retake! u know what they say about diversity? it indeed creates beauty. thru defeat and glory, WE ARE ALL ONE.

=))

friends & cold beers..

as i was trying to undo things in my room moments ag0, i saw this piece of paper circularly folded inside a bamboo cup. this paper is actually the paper they gave us when we made our way to the stage when we had our graduation. it's the very paper that your school gives you as ' the diploma'(but actually, the real ones haven't been printed yet). i just have this hobby of collecting pieces of things from imp0rtant and memorable milestones 0f my existence. i still have the candle i lit when we had our pr0m(oh gee! hehe..), the invitation, notes my classmates wrote for me, pictures, one of the stars my classmates made for our christmas decor, and that bamboo cup is in fact the one we used for our 'West Side Story' presentation( i wasn't the actor chasing Maria, hokey? i was at the backstage...busily and secretly destroying their scene! haha..), and lotsa lots of memorabilia. i miss highschool soo freaking bad!!!

the paper contains something i want to share to all of you.
so here g0es..
warning: TOXIC. highlevel of ka-corny-han awaits!*chuckles..

Don't ever forget that you are unique.
Be your best self,
and not an imitation of someone else.
Don't listen to those
who ridicule the choices you make.
Travel the road that you have chosen
and don't lo0k back with regret.
You have to take chances
to make your dreams happen.
Remember that there is plenty of time
to travel another road...and still another...
in your journey through life.

Take time to find the route
that is right for you.
You will learn something valuable
from every trip you take,
so d0n't be afraid to make mistakes.
Tell yourself that you're okay,
just the way you are.
Make friends who respect your true self.
Take time to be al0ne, too,
so you can know just how terrific
your own company can be.
Remember that being alone
doesn't always mean being lonely,
it can be a beautiful experience
of finding your creativity,
your heartfelt feelings,
and the calm and quiet peace deep inside you.

Please don't ever forget that you are special
and very much loved.


P.S.
cheet ----> nickel nickelback knicknack nickelodeon. wuhaha! ma d0nate k0 b0ok! okay man? nu cmu? HEHE:0
MB ----> ari na. naka p0st na ko! HEHEHE:0
to my alter(or altered!) eg0 ----> please practice what you preach. and ur not taking good care of yourself lately, please don't be so hard on yourself. and by the way, cheer up!

i guess what we really need in life are g0od friends,
and some cold beers.


and a blog to give thanks to the former.
=)))

tipsy, ask no more.

whining.

m0i favorit0! i like whining u know. it exercises my body, i get a little privacy for myself (c0z family members tend to keep a 10-meter distance away from me..hehe!), and the monetary value of my personal things depreciate(hehe again!). and by whining, millions of queries pop out of my gray matter. whining why i have to go thru this and that. why destiny not just present itself in front of us, so as to save time and effort. why a person has to go humongous ordeals just to make 'it'. why people and things have to come unexpectedly and finding urself next day you wake up, bang! they're gone. it hurts u know. there's just so many whys..and whys again..and whys some more.


so here they go. warning: loads of immaturity ahead!!!

to Life,
why are you so hard to deal with? what's wrong with you? where's the road not taken? where's the road frequently taken? is it true, that the road frequently taken is safe? and if it's safe, could you assure me that the traffic there is not terrible? do tell me.

to College Life,
i got u wrong on my first step. why? what went wrong? had u told me earlier that i got it wrong, i could have saved myself from drowning. why do u have to plant eyebags on our faces? why do u have to keep us nocturnal? and why did you allow me last time to ride that last trip going back home? alas dose na ko ya kapuli! tap0s gn lakat ko pa 1 km nga isahanon lng sa dalan. nu mati mu ck0n bampira?! hehe..

to Happiness,
y do u have to go abruptly the minute after u let us felt ur presence? and when are you coming back? i'll be waiting... =)

to my friends here in SB,
cnu pa da indi adik? hahaha.. aylabyus for all! j't aime!

to my College Friends,
wala man kmu natak-an ck0n? hehe! din naman ta nyu maka-0n? Lovely, si Nick gd man? or si Klint? hahaha! 2 years na lng gli noh? and after we grad, will you all miss me? i'll surely do.

and to my Bespren,
we seldom see each other now. why do you have to go a long mile just to pursue a degree? why didn't you study here in the city instead? that's the one question i've been asking you in the past three years. i just can't fathom it. i know u have bigger dreams for urself, i'll always be here.


so people if you got some answers to my idiotic wonders, please drop by at our house. be sure though that i'm not whinning. or else..

i'm getting tipsy, i should ask no more.
chill. =)))

triple deja vu

the monitor is a blank space, and so is my brain --- again.
two. weeks. of. postless. blog. makes. my. alter. ego. mad. ---the writer one.(forgive ur blogger for being conceited! hehe..) vote Red for mayor of Loserville!

nevertheless, THERE'S SO MUCH TO CELEBRATE! (not counting the postponement of class on m0nday coz omnivores will be swarming to Jaro.)

and there's, Serena. SHE WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn! 10 Grand Slam titles overall. watchout Steffi Graf. Serena is as hot as Australia's scorching heat! even hotter than the center of the universe! she's just simply the hottest thing. any temperature-measuring device got broken. indeed, Serena fever is in the ayer ayer. in fact, it seems to be resurging.

i patiently waited for 24 hours(and went ahead of my friends in our weekly 'fat session') just to see her playing live on tv. but fate intervened and it's just too bad that i haven't seen her slamming her opponent down. these irritating sports channel. don't they know what tournament hooks their audiences? certainly, they don't. teh nag internet na lng ko eh para may updates man ko bskan scores lng.

hours ago, the sporting world saw Serena win(easily) her 4th Australian Open trophy. she continues to win in an odd-numbered years, 2003, 2005, 2007, and 2009. everything is deja vu --- triple deja vu.

i dunno y. but it's always, always was, and always be an out-of-body experience for me to watch her clutch a Grand Slam trophy. watching her winning is the total sum(gd ya?) of my existence. it's the pinnacle of it all. and one more thing, she's back being the world no.1! and she just surpassed Anika Sorenstam as the highest earning female athlete of all time!
=)))


P.S. madamu nga salamat sa mga nag-upod ck0n pray nga tani magdaug si Serena. hehehe! cheesy. =) wow two weeks man ko la ka post bah. snxa sa mga tagasubaybay ko(followers or not..harhar). j'aimer vous tout! chill. =)

SERENA RULES!

yeah. she d0es.

God is just.
Australian Open na bwas! weeeeh! after weeks of excruciating pain due to some mundane things this world has to offer(i is pathetic. a pathetic mortal!), alas! at last there's something to look forward! haaaaah!

la lng. nasadyahan lng ko ya. amu naman ni pagpuli ko timprano pa(take note: timprano is subjective). di naman ko ni makatuon para lng makalantaw kay Serena(and Venus to0!). haha..funny kay last tym nag absent gd ko sa aga para lng makalantaw sang quarterfinal sng Williams sisters. twas worth the final!

and Serena won the tournament!!! her 3rd US Open title.
overall, she has 9 Major Titles on her hands.
a French, 2 Wimbledons, 3 US Open, and 3 Aussie Open(this will be her 4th. wanna bet?)

bsta madaug na si Serena ah! period. it would take us a whole day kung si Serena lng istoryahan ta. hehe!

si Roger Fed madaug man na. tap0s na mga maliligayang araw ni Nadal! wuhahaha!

cnu da may bangka man? makadto ta sa Australia b! or di gni bskan salbabida na lng. hihi..ah bal-an ko na, i'll just follow the EAC. the East Australian Current, dude. (sounds family? haha..sa Finding Nemo na.)

drinks, smokes, and drugs simply pale in comparison with my addcition to Serena. i just never get tired of watching her vids on youtube, really. i can still remember the first time i saw her. she was then playing against Jennifer Capriati(speaking of drugs..o0ops! bsi ma libel ko d!) on the quarterfinal(or semis yata..bsta.) of the US Open. to0 bad she lost due to the cataract-infested eye of one the linesmen!

gling damu man ga discriminate sa ila(Serena&Venus). they're Afro-American dan. teh anu karon?! just because a person's pair of chromosome went different, it does not give us the right to discriminate them. wake up mortals! wake up!

basta ah, Australian Open na bwas! weeeh!

i'll keep u updated as the tournament progresses.. =))


"if u find urself at the bottom of the barrel, u have nowhere to go, but to go up. up there."
- Serena Williams

LSS mode

life is a rollercoaster-ride (wow, cliche-intoxicated na gd k0).
f0r a moment ur at the top of it, and the next m0ment, u'll wonder how in the world u plummeted at the bottom.
pretty sucks.

welcome to the limbo ride, guys.

---

Procrastinating i feel so
Useless on my own You're
Always waiting just in time
To save me I'm not so useless
I'm not alone so here i am
It's 3a.m. No better time to begin.

(Procrastinating, by Stellar Kart)


Sometimes I need some time...on my own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

(November Rain, by Gun's n Roses)

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..

(Stan, by Eminem feat Dido)

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha).

(Mockingbird, by Eminem)

And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

(Let It Be, by The Beatles)

And at
The end of the day
Well remember the days
We were close to the edge
And well wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
Well remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
Well remember it was me and you

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love
High, high, high, high...

(High, by Lighthouse Family)



But its alright, I know youre out there
Doing what youve gotta do
You are my soul satellite
Id be lost in space without you

(Lost In Space, by Lighthouse Family)


Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

(Imagine, by John Lennon)



if there's one thing that i'm thankful f0r as human civilization evolves, it would be my uppers, SONGS. old school is the best. so is John Lennon. h0w i wish i was born the time when The Beatles ruled the universe. the time bef0re Steven Spielberg created E.T. hehe..
*LSS mode for now..

thoughtless..i need a pustiso!

life is exceptionally hard, again.
classes had started a week ago.
loads of things to be accomplished.
and some not-so-important things that needs mending. *sigh

this is just pure torture.
enough of this whining, Red. en0ugh.

as i was strolling the shelves of a b0okstore yesterday, Youngblo0d 2.0 grabbed my attention. the b0ok is actually a cornucopia of essays written by a bunch of y0ung pe0ple from all walks of life, and of the road. corny Red. (haha..) hence the title, Youngblood 2.0..
twas funny and amusing how youth of those days('97-'98) viewed their experiences along the way. hello honest candor and wicked wit.

so how does a y0uth of the 21st century view s0me things? u ask. cge na lng gni, i'm in the mo0d to type dan. hihi..

ON SCHOOLING

if only Bill Gates would let me inherit the vastness of his wealth, i would never care to wake up very early in the morning just to educate(???) myself. if life is hard, thinking is way much harder! it's very strenuous. they say that out of 100% of things that we learn in school, roughly only 10 % remains in our coconut shells. does it apply to u too? or is it just on me? sch0ol is fun though. it allows you to discover things that experiences could never dare teach us. (du ka baliskad sng thought noh? hmm..) and cheating is one of those. *big grin..if anyone never did such, idareyou, cast a stone(boulder pwede man ah! gling basi mapatay naku na! anu na lng b future sng Philippines?! haha..) on me. but no, really, talking about the things school taught and imparted in me would take us a long while. unless, cheating is allowed.=) teachers teach us life's lessons, and cutting ur nails is one of them. 0uch. that stick hurts! and friends spell FUN. hearthrobs and chikabebes make hearts flutter when they appear 10 meters away on your radar. and exams and the likes increase wrinkles, therefore increases and puts Viki Belo on BIR's top ten highest annual income earner. where did she go to school anyway? haha..

P.S. if ur place is 10+ meters below sea level, u don't have a choice but to wake up very very early and see if u can get more than a drop of water. lunurin ang MIWD!!! lunurin! lunurin!
pati kana MIWD ah. du di gd kmu ma joke! lols. pish tayo.

ON BLOGGING

action speaks louder than blog. says wh0?! sometimes, a blog is the hellish way of expressing ur thoughts when u can't put them into actions. i like blogging. i think it gives me the freedom to express the thoughts that prohibits me to say in a society governed by stereotyping and stupidity.(hey, i'm a part of that society.)

P.S. I MISS THIS. damn! a huge tnx to my 5 followers. you all make my stay here easier for me. and u all inspire me a lot. nakz! okey sa 0lrayt!=)))


ON BOOKS

i pretty adore b0oks to0. in the words of the very inspirational(haha..) Bob Ong, 'tao ka, at merong karne sa gitna ng iyong dalawang tenga na kailangang pakainin.' how true. how very true. b0oks are my companions on a day when boredom kills. it never fails to entertain after a day full of tv & internet. it teaches us, makes us laugh, cry, or even wail sometimes. and the best part? it's when u have yaman(*ehem!) friends who's willing to lend you their collections! hehe..'b0oks are lighthouses', as the p0et once put it, 'erected in the seas of time. they are the engineers and architects of the foundations of mankind. they are the windows to the world. the magicians, teachers, and inventors of the universe. bo0ks are humanity in print.'

P.S. nabakal ko na gd man gna ang youngbl0od 2.0! hehe..mahal gling ang 'Tales of Beedle the Bard' ni JK. whew..i'll give it a try next time.


ON POLITICS

just pure SOS. Same Old Stuff. what's new? Philippine politics is one big telenovela. just picture this out, Gloria is the leading lady, the congressmen are her suitors who would go the mo0n and reach the stars just to get her '0o'. the people who run the telenovela is making money out of it. hey, money is the name of the game. the Filipino people is the audience. unfortunately for the audience, the telenovela is always a replay. p0or audiences. but i know there's still some who know that money can buy them a king-size bed(is there such? i think queen-size lng.) but never a go0dnight sleep. can buy them a multilevel house but never a harmonious home. and delicious foods but never the appetite.

P.S. i better stop this innuendos before the leading lady's legal counsel sue my ass in court!

and on LOVE.
hmm..what should be said? LOVE is a word. a four-letter word. and there's more to it than that.
baw. du piho aw. haha.. some people though don't get to know the aftermath of it. pain. hurt.(four-letter words are all over the place!) and sometimes, suicide.(this definitely is not a four-letter word.) there's no pain in love. how could love itself hurt? pain is just the mere consequence of it. and it's because there's lack of love. if u feel like crying, teh hibi ka eh! problema bla na?! be sure enough though, that the person is worth the tears. if otherwise, pag anu ya nga! huh. for those who are in a relationship, live the moment. and never cease to appreciate who and what u both have. and to my colleagues(haha!), the singletons, have patience and learn to wait. what's the rush? there's plenty of time anyway. just wait coz who knows, it might just take u by surprise. if you feel the person is the 'one', then go get it. we all take a risk when we open our hearts. because the truth is, we will get hurt. you can't open your heart and not have some hurt because you're in a human experience.

P.S. du piho gd ya ah. haha..du wala ga konek2 akon mga thoughts ah. cge lng, makakita gd ko na sng makakonek ck0n, someday. =)))

super, mega, giga P.S. ---> after 6 days of p0stless blog, nakap0st na gd man ko! weeeeh! i'm not thoughtless after all. but i still need my pustiso!
=)

when thank you is an understatement

damn! the weather makes me sick these days. in a g0od way. my dream of experiencing the sn0w is slowly melting away because of this in-your-skin-Christmas-aftermath breeze. lameeeeeeeeeg! this day is something different. it wasn't my usual sleep-eat-tv-pc day for me.

our friends are family that we cho0se for ourselves.

my friend asked me last time to help him vacate and transfer his things because he's ab0ut to have a new boarding house. pard0n him, he has nomadic tendencies. s0rry nick! haha..
tita chelsea(that's sarrah.. nick is toto, krisha is inday<---she gets mad though when i call her such...lovely is tyay, and our list g0es on.) already helped him yesterday. so things weren't that hard for me. there was a box, a balde, a plastic bag, a long mirror, and hangers(take that! haha!). xempre nag taxi na lng kmi eh kay bsi masal-an kmi nga kawatan sa dalan. weeeeh!

when we arrived to his new boarding house, we t0ok s0me time what to do with his extra things. *i like the r0om coz it's small. i was never the type wh0 liked big ro0ms. dunno y. =)
then we tried to cajole lovely to come over the place c0z her house is just a stone's throw away from nick's place. g0od thing she happily obliged our requests.

hint: if cupid had psyche, romeo had juliet, and rhett had scarlet,
NICK HAS LOVELY. hahaha! *patay gd ko ni cla nga duwa! ssshh..

then we went to lovely's h0use to borrow her assignment 0n physics.
sorry ma, i'll study harder. h0key? =)

their h0use is a tw0 thumbs up. whitwhew!
at 6 o'clock, we tried to move our asses out of their house coz it's getting dark and cold. cold. cold.

i'm glad our friendship in the College(PMT) is a two-way highway(rhymes. anyone? haha..).

• krisha & nick <---- tnx for the wonderful and stupid moments. lyf in the College w0uld never b d same without u both. =)
• to0tz <---- tnx for being my study partner.
• chelsea & bam2 <---- u made my 1st yr in the College a memorable one.
• peb <---- congrats!!! weeeeh!
• jael <---- diet na ha? hokey? hehe..
• lovely <---- the nights when i lose my notes, i kn0w wh0m to call. a big tnx to that. d na mag sinuplada b!
• t0net <---- chatm8,blogm8. tnx for the school supplies that i never care to bring. hehe!
• and MB <---- chatm8, blogm8. bskan duwa na lng ta bilin sa chatr0om this h0lidaYs, conversations were never boring. and tnx for the 'go for the goal' syndrome! it helps.
• and of course, the Phar 2B pe0ple. long live!
  

they once did their part for me. now i'm happy i did mine. in the words of maya angelou, 'a friend is someone that lifts y0u up.'

i'm happy to experience b0th.
=)

Vero Possimus!

0kay. so, 2008 was d0ne.
i welc0med 2009 busily chatting with some friends. (my regular chatm8 even told me; 'i welcomed 2009 as a single'. haha..wait till it takes u by surprise!)
and attending Christmas party(of our whole family).
and joyfully listening to those firecrackers 0n a cold and rainy New Year's Eve. some firecrackers never made a sound though. curse the rain! there were lotsa fireworks in our street! for 30 minutes, we painted the sky rainbow! weeeeeeh!

i did it all at the same time. i have alter egos u know. hehe!=)
talk about multitasking.

a new year has passed and a new one is just starting to unravel itself.
and celebrating the coming of a new year isn't complete without(drumroll please!)...taraaan! a New Year's Resolution! =)

( i only want to do TEN this tym so things would be attainable and damn easy for me. haha!)

1. to hear the mass every Sunday & special holidays. (canonization. anyone?)
2. to do the household chores. ( my mom does them all the time here. naluoy ko gni cya. awwww..)
3. to study hard. i mean, HARDER! (gotta make my momma proud. hehe)
4. to save more more more moneee. weeeeh!
5. to limit my skyrocketting spending spree! (won't tell u though what items i spend my money on. haha! not fo0d. not cl0thes. not gadgets. basta ah!)
6. to open up myself on meeting new people. (i just got few acquaintances this year.)
7. to not procrastinate things. (lyk reading b0oks, asyments, projects, and STUDYING ON EXAMS! and all.)
8. to sleep and wake up at the proper time. (haha!)
9. to convert myself into a health freak. (i NEED to be healthy this year.)
10. to be a good person. (ang mag react bitayon suli. hahaha!)

bahala na si Batman ah. weeeeh!


they say that if y0u do something, something goes back to y0u. and so these are the TEN things i want f0r 2009.

1. the Harry Potter book collection(hardbound) & JK's latest addition, the Tales of the Beedle Bard.
2. a memory card so i could transfer all the songs on my f0ne. ( i know u pr0lly have one, teh kay la ko ya kwarta magbakal. hehe!)
3. Grey's Anatomy, Heroes, & House dvd collection. ( dvd marathon! nami ang GA!)
4. a pair of slippers. (the one u cud use when going out of the house.)
5. a hat. (krisha didn't return my one & only hat.)
6. to own a pair of white shoes. (duty time!)
7. hopefully to start collecting Pugad Baboy series.
8. a go0d sweater to combat the c0ld waetherrrr...
9. cge na lng gni, a laptop! (enticing. whitwhew!)
10. a presentable report card! (go0dluck to me.)

i may n0t achieve them all. what the heck, libre ang mangarap!
g0odluck to 2009 and may God bless us all!

Vero Possimus! Yes We Can.